I love my daughter with all my heart but motherhood is hard.

At the age of 22, I was blessed with my first child and motherhood is nothing like I would have imagined. Becoming a young mother was life changing for me, I had a really hard time adjusting in the beginning. Imagine giving birth to a child when you’re still trying to find your own way. There’s a lot of early mornings and late nights. There were so many times she cried and because I couldn’t figure out what was wrong I cried. It was hard to differentiate whether the cries were for hunger or if she was tired. I was extremely lucky because just like all babies, she did cry but she wasn’t a fussy baby.

There were a lot of nights I didn’t rest because after getting her to sleep, I would just lay there and watch her. I may not have been ready for Peyton but I do believe she came in my life at the right time and for a reason. I wouldn’t have changed anything I’ve done thus far because it has shaped me, not only as a mother but the young women I’m becoming.

It terrified me to think that in addition to taking care of myself, I would now be caring for another human being. I was no longer concerned with myself, every decision and choice I made was with her in mind. My “selfish years,” were over. My mindset was completely different, no matter what the decision was in regards to, I thought about it how would affect Peyton.

My love for my daughter helped me learn to be more selfless. She soften my heart, and helped me view the world through a different perspective.

Love,

Shanice

“Mothers and their children are in a category all their own. There’s no bond so strong in the entire world. No love so instantaneous and forgiving.” —Gail Tsukiyama


Shanice is the founder of the Goddess Within Her Blog. You can find her on Facebook and Instagram!